D008-2022

 I refuse to accept that I’m….gag… 32 years old

Truth to be told when I’m in my 20’s, I dont think I would live pass 30 years old…

D005-2022

time machine, invisible cloak & pocket doraemon

I could spend all my life, invisible and travel to various places & time

enjoying beautiful places, absorbing culture and nature, learning, playing...just living

D261-2018

I felt empty

But I want to be alone

I don’t understand myself

People don’t understand me

I don’t expect & want them to understand me

I feel so conflicted & complicated on what I really want & what I should to feel complete

Help

D204-2018

Why I travel?

Seem like a simple question right?

But really. Why?

Just to show off?

To boost around when talking to someone?

To waste money?

I travel to see the world myself

Sound cliché

But it’s true

I love my comfort zone. I really do. Book, tv & internet is enough to open my mind

But travel give a different feeling

and

I want to experience it myself

Feel the rush & excitement of getting lost

To taste the snow

To listen to the wind

To enjoy the delicacy (cop Halal)

To touch the nature & people

I want to experience what restricted by book, tv & internet

Even though my travel style is more comfortable than backpacking but not as luxury as the rich but I’m proud of myself

I can do it without depending on someone else. It’s all my hard earn money bebeh

Haters gonna hatezzz. tiberrr

I’m still new in this & visited a few countries (need to keep saving more) so I’m not planning to stop anytime soon. God willing & I have the opportunity I will keep going.

Money can come & go but the experience is priceless (again. Cliché)

I’m grateful for having understanding parent & good travel buddy. Without them, I don’t think I’m brave enough to go outside my comfort zone

I wish that I have enough to bring my parent travel too so they could enjoy what I enjoy

D184-2017

The struggle is real bila ko dianugerahkan dengan kulit muka yang sensitive ni. 

Salah makan breakout. Salah pakai produk breakout. Stress emo breakout. Nak period breakout. Tengah period breakout. Kena habuk breakout. Salam orang langgar2 pipi breakout. Bernafas breakout. 

Serba serbi jadi salah. 

Dan ko kena super careful dengan semua benda. Kadang bila sume dah ok dah jaga tetap breakout gak. Ko rasa camne? 

Yela. Muka ni asset. Bukan minta cantik cam nora danish ke neelofa (contoh artis Malaysia) atau kim tae hee ke park shin hye (contoh artis Korea). Aim ak biar kulit bersih floless & nampak sihat je. 

Sebab muka ak dah cun dah. Hahaha. Confident beb. 

Dan bukan sama sekali nak muka lawa sebab nak goda lelaki kayyy. Jangan kolot sangat fikir tu. Ni untuk keyakinan diri sendiri. 

Stress weii bila orang dok tegur2 ni. Dorang tak tau kita struggle camne. Muka awak sapu bedak baby johnson je dah cantik takpe laa. Janganla kecam orang yang muka tak berapa nak flawless sangat ni. Boleh down member.

Kulit sensitif ni memang sume benda nak kena bersih. Cadar bantal kena selalu tukar. Bilik kena bersih. Tudung anak tudung kena bersih. Barang makeup sume kena basuh selalu. Tangan kena selalu basuh. Clean freak ko jadi tau tak. 

So, bila jumpa tu sembang jela cam biasa. takyah tenung kira jerawat kat muka member tu. Bila dia ngadu pasal muka dia baru ko bagi semangat. Suggest2 sikit produk yang ko rasa sesuai. And make sure bukan produk timbang kati. Tapi yang betul2 ok dan berkesan. 

Lagi satu bukan senang nak cari produk yang betul2 kena dengan kulit. Kena selalu mencuba. Bila dah cuba baru tau. Duit jgn cakapla. Beribu abis. Nak cakap high maintenance pun cakaplaa. Sebab ak beli2 sume ni pun guna duit sendiri. Bukan minta duit sape2 pun. 

Ketahuilah. Org yang kulit sensitive cam ak merupakan org yang penyabar, tak mudah putus asa & berfikiran positive yang muka dia akan ok suatu hari nanti.aminnn

Ok. #donemembebel

D69-2017

Being human is hard work

You have to eat, sleep, poop and repeat till you die

You have to be careful not to get hurt

Even a small paper cut hurts like hell

You have to wear clothes every time you go out or even at home

Then you have to wash it, dry, fold and keep in closet

You have to maintain your social connection with other

People will like you. People will hate you

And you will do the same to them

Being human is hard work

But you learn to love, laugh and hope

You learn to dream and work to achieve that dream

You learn to live when you down, broken, sad, and hopeless

You learn to let it go and try again

Being human is hard

And all is worth it

D55-2017

Human.
Only appreciate once it's gone
Want it when it's not yours
Looking for it when it's lost

Yes. Human
We were born that way
I'm born that way
And
I hate it

Well. I ignore you before
I push you away
I give up on you without trying

Now you finally found the love of your life
I sincerely pray for your happiness
I wish you deserve someone better than me
And I'm glad you found it
I really do

But remember what I said above?
Yes. It's feel bitter. A bit. And I don't regret letting you go because you better of without me.

So, thank you for coming in my life, trying. And all the best! 

D52-2017

Have you ever wonder why people like you or even fall in love with you?

I did.

My appearance is very normal which mean less attractive/ dull

My personality is also very normal (read: boring)

I’m not kind. Far from kind

Lazy – yes

Very pessimistic

Hot tempered

And lots more. Too lazy to list out.

Hence, I find it amusing when people find me interesting or they seem to like me

Because I won’t like myself let alone falling in love.

Well maybe at first they will fall in love but not stay in love with me.

Whenever people expect something from me, I would get stress out and end up disappointed them.

Yup… sorry about that

It’s good whenever you see people finding their ‘the one’. A person that could tolerate your weaknesses and enhance your strength. Happy with a slight sting of jealousy.

I don’t feel positive about finding 'the one'. Probably I will be happier staying alone with a cat or cats. I don’t know yet.

I kinda have a mix feeling about it. I want someone to stay by my side but I also afraid.

What if I end up disappointed him?

What if I’m not good enough?

What if he cannot accept me? Or I can’t accept him?

It’s scary!

D8-2017

I think I spend this weekend rather productive.

I pack my stuff for holiday, clean up my room and house as a whole.

Wash my blanket and now its smell so good. J

What else? Oh! Wash the bathroom. It’s a good exercise I’ll say.

I also had done ironing my working clothes. Ironing sometime could be so therapeutic but some time could be so annoying since my iron is kinda broken. Remind me to buy new iron after my next paycheck.

And watching drama and movies all day long. Love it! 

D7-2017

Well, my new year resolution have gone to dust.
What the heck,
I just write whenever I feel like.

In few days I will go travel to somewhere cold and snowy. Yayy! So happy!
The thing is when I done packing, I keep forgetting things over and over.
Do you know how frustrating that is?
I got limited space but so many things to put like food, food and food some more.

In my defence I already reduce some of the item and bring only essential stuff. But... I'm going somewhere cold and need to bring winter attire which is big and heavy.

I know, I being bitchy about this. What ever!
I going on holiday! Yeay! Wohooo!!!