But...
At the same time I feel lonely. Not for long thou. Whenever I scroll my timeline on FB and saw my friends have more happier life with partners and child. That's when I hate myself.
I guess I'm complicated like that. So that some people who are alone and introvert like me.
We love to be alone. But loneliness is like a shadow that keep pestering us from truly be happy.
Some of my friend don't understand when I said I don't get out on weekends. It's like I have a problem or something. No. I'm not depressed. Well, not that much. I just found easier and simpler ways to spend my weekend which not involve going out and interact with people.
I think I so used of spending time alone that I have a hard time going outside. Don't get me wrong, if it is necessary to go out I would go. Nowadays, when I'm outside I had a hard time focusing and I will get headache. I get too nervous and forget things. I hope it's not to severe because I still enjoy occasionally going out and have fun with my friends.
