25 February 2017

D55-2017

Human.
Only appreciate once it's gone
Want it when it's not yours
Looking for it when it's lost

Yes. Human
We were born that way
I'm born that way
And
I hate it

Well. I ignore you before
I push you away
I give up on you without trying

Now you finally found the love of your life
I sincerely pray for your happiness
I wish you deserve someone better than me
And I'm glad you found it
I really do

But remember what I said above?
Yes. It's feel bitter. A bit. And I don't regret letting you go because you better of without me.

So, thank you for coming in my life, trying. And all the best! 

21 February 2017

D52-2017

Have you ever wonder why people like you or even fall in love with you?
I did.

My appearance is very normal which mean less attractive/ dull
My personality is also very normal (read: boring)

I’m not kind. Far from kind
Lazy – yes
Very pessimistic
Hot tempered
And lots more. Too lazy to list out.

Hence, I find it amusing when people find me interesting or they seem to like me
Because I won’t like myself let alone falling in love.
Well maybe at first they will fall in love but not stay in love with me.
Whenever people expect something from me, I would get stress out and end up disappointed them.

Yup… sorry about that

It’s good whenever you see people finding their ‘the one’. A person that could tolerate your weaknesses and enhance your strength. Happy with a slight sting of jealousy.

I don’t feel positive about finding 'the one'. Probably I will be happier staying alone with a cat or cats. I don’t know yet.

I kinda have a mix feeling about it. I want someone to stay by my side but I also afraid.
What if I end up disappointed him?
What if I’m not good enough?
What if he cannot accept me? Or I can’t accept him?

It’s scary!